Sonic X
"An Outcast In A World of Hypocricy"
My Final Say......
Well since a larger part of the staff here hates me, here is what i have to say. Bash me, call me childish names, but what ever this is a serious post.
When this site started Aaron asked me and SkyFinch to help with what we could, he dubbed us co-owners. SkyFinch was mr.gifted and talented and most people praised his art like they do their religions. Aaron had the money to support it and i was the guy in the middle and did what ever i could at the time with my craptastic web design knoweledge. I helped come up with the name and it begun. I couldn't figure shit out and was stuck on my dinosaur piece of shit computer so it always pissed me off. So sometimes i did complain but all i wanted to do was help get this site huge, i got so tired of going to other forums where conversations revolve around: Hah thats gay, or fuck you that sucks if someone disagrees with you. Or places with staff so uptight obviously moronic jokes were taken too seriously.
Our site was supposed to be that, fun and able to screw around, just like skyfinch's old site but bigger and revolved around games. In the end i think it has caused every single person here except a select few dislike for other members on the board. Sure not everyone get's along but way back when Ice Knight started coming here everyone poked fun at him, and he knows it's true and Probably me and adam are the ones to do it most but every staffer here but videodrome and radiohead said something stupid towards him at one point or another, at which point he decided to push adams buttons and they've both done it ever since. Everytime i would have a conversation with them it was the both of them bitching at each other until one would get mad and leave. Then they'd both open up new windows telling me how much the other pissed them off or how gay they were.
Still almost everyone here at one point has had there buttons pushed and has said shit. Vicman would always get mad when Aaron would make stupid anime pictures making fun of it then Aaron would message me how funny he found it that Vicman got uptight about it when ever he did it. Catp00p did the same and went off on Vicman and argued with him and they stopped and had a truce or some such shit, who knows they'd both say how much they disliked the other to me when they would talk to me. And it was all over stupid ass redundant jokes.
I think catp00p once said: Aaron don't you own this site? Who cares what everyone else thinks?(From the porn dicussion thread)
Now if i remember correctly when i first met you Aaron you said we did co-own and that i did have some say in what went on and that my opinion would count for something other some random person posting in the suggestions and feedback forum.
SkyFinch left, said it was all the bitching i did, and some other things supposedly factored in. The thing that started it was me getting mad that Ice Knight had deleted catp00ps photoshopped pics of Ice Himself. I don't know how that triggered some events but the last thing to happen was me getting mad that adam or skyfinch wouldn't help me test something that "I" was doing for the site so i took offense because he just closed the window. He also took offense when i stated my opinion on MotoGP2 when all i was trying to say was i mad i spent money on this and wouldnt have anyone to play with.
I also remember catp00p(who i'm not blaming everything on, cause i blame everything on everyones general attitude here) making a thread about buffy, first off i don't care if you like it and if you say you don't, hey to each his own. But at most other forums when people come into threads going out of there way bashing something it's common to tell them to stop, if they're going overboard. An then even insulting a another moderator or admin is plain against the rules(That's my reasoning for banning DA he was doing it to get at me). I stritcly remember talking to you guys about it and then catp00p saying he was sorry then deleting the thread. Maybe i did make a big deal when Ice deleted that thread but no one would listen to me and just bashed me for voicing my opinion on the matter except maybe adam. But i guess everyone only listens to Aaron cause cash talks and no one really gave me credit for anything anyways.
I tryed talking to SkyFinch when he acted weird but he would intentionally avoid me at all cost's when all i wanted to do was have a serious conversation like i "tried" with so many people here. Now Aaron is doing the same thing i tried talking to him about it then he got all offensive and made this i'm done post then went off on me when Ice Knight starts bashing me when i guess i'm supposed to just flick off like it's nothing, and not say anything when he suggests i'm to blame and i should be banned. Vicman was doing the same thing i was you said it yourself Aaron, so what the easiest solution was just to blame me again since a few people hated me anyways? You suddenly change you're mind as does Vicman about the whole situation, no one here dare try to have a serious conversation about anything, you lose you're "cool factor" and you're "corny factor" goes up for not laughing off every single thing.
We all did the same thing to adam until vicman convinced us to let him back in, we generally didn't like his attitude so we pushed him to the curve until vicman convinced us to talk to him about it, which we did and realized we were ass holes and adam stopped doing most of the annoying things he did cause he then realized what really it was that he was doing. Because we talked about it. I remember you Aaron saying things along the lines of: Yea we just modded him cause he posts alot and then me agreeing with you until i realized that Adam didn't understand any of it well, and i think no one here understands my sarcasm, cause it's hard as hell to detect it over the internet.
I made a little joke then vicman made one and it kept going until we both started saying messed up shit. And i did get mad, and both of us messaged Aaron about it, which then "appeared" to be the problem until everyone decided to blame me again. I don't see how i started something if two people are both doing the same thing. Same with the halo thing i make a smilie face then vicman is calling me a faggot for not liking it and i guess im to blame for that also. No one else here has to be bashed by the entire forum populace for not liking something or constantly 24/7 poked at for his fandom cause people are always out to see what joke will flip the switch today.
I don't ever remember a single time going out of my way to make someone else mad unless they did it to me first, if it caused other problems maybe you should look at the things you did wrong or that caused problems too, but no here is man enough to admit that they did anything wrong, it's easier to follow the crowd or pressure yourself into something instead of stating your own unique opinion. Maybe half the problems here would have been resolved and most of the original people would still be here if people would have been willing to confront their so-called "friends" who would have more then willingly liked to talk about something, but then again i remember trying to and when i thought something was offensive vicman just made jokes cause he thinks everything is funny, and Aaron stays Neutral and seems to ignore anything else someone might *gasp* feel...
No one will read this or even try to talk about it so in the end i guess it doesn't really matter....
Anyone who cares(like anyone does) can e-mail me at [email protected] (for msn) or e-mail at [email protected]
So whatever..
Well since a larger part of the staff here hates me, here is what i have to say. Bash me, call me childish names, but what ever this is a serious post.
When this site started Aaron asked me and SkyFinch to help with what we could, he dubbed us co-owners. SkyFinch was mr.gifted and talented and most people praised his art like they do their religions. Aaron had the money to support it and i was the guy in the middle and did what ever i could at the time with my craptastic web design knoweledge. I helped come up with the name and it begun. I couldn't figure shit out and was stuck on my dinosaur piece of shit computer so it always pissed me off. So sometimes i did complain but all i wanted to do was help get this site huge, i got so tired of going to other forums where conversations revolve around: Hah thats gay, or fuck you that sucks if someone disagrees with you. Or places with staff so uptight obviously moronic jokes were taken too seriously.
Our site was supposed to be that, fun and able to screw around, just like skyfinch's old site but bigger and revolved around games. In the end i think it has caused every single person here except a select few dislike for other members on the board. Sure not everyone get's along but way back when Ice Knight started coming here everyone poked fun at him, and he knows it's true and Probably me and adam are the ones to do it most but every staffer here but videodrome and radiohead said something stupid towards him at one point or another, at which point he decided to push adams buttons and they've both done it ever since. Everytime i would have a conversation with them it was the both of them bitching at each other until one would get mad and leave. Then they'd both open up new windows telling me how much the other pissed them off or how gay they were.
Still almost everyone here at one point has had there buttons pushed and has said shit. Vicman would always get mad when Aaron would make stupid anime pictures making fun of it then Aaron would message me how funny he found it that Vicman got uptight about it when ever he did it. Catp00p did the same and went off on Vicman and argued with him and they stopped and had a truce or some such shit, who knows they'd both say how much they disliked the other to me when they would talk to me. And it was all over stupid ass redundant jokes.
I think catp00p once said: Aaron don't you own this site? Who cares what everyone else thinks?(From the porn dicussion thread)
Now if i remember correctly when i first met you Aaron you said we did co-own and that i did have some say in what went on and that my opinion would count for something other some random person posting in the suggestions and feedback forum.
SkyFinch left, said it was all the bitching i did, and some other things supposedly factored in. The thing that started it was me getting mad that Ice Knight had deleted catp00ps photoshopped pics of Ice Himself. I don't know how that triggered some events but the last thing to happen was me getting mad that adam or skyfinch wouldn't help me test something that "I" was doing for the site so i took offense because he just closed the window. He also took offense when i stated my opinion on MotoGP2 when all i was trying to say was i mad i spent money on this and wouldnt have anyone to play with.
I also remember catp00p(who i'm not blaming everything on, cause i blame everything on everyones general attitude here) making a thread about buffy, first off i don't care if you like it and if you say you don't, hey to each his own. But at most other forums when people come into threads going out of there way bashing something it's common to tell them to stop, if they're going overboard. An then even insulting a another moderator or admin is plain against the rules(That's my reasoning for banning DA he was doing it to get at me). I stritcly remember talking to you guys about it and then catp00p saying he was sorry then deleting the thread. Maybe i did make a big deal when Ice deleted that thread but no one would listen to me and just bashed me for voicing my opinion on the matter except maybe adam. But i guess everyone only listens to Aaron cause cash talks and no one really gave me credit for anything anyways.
I tryed talking to SkyFinch when he acted weird but he would intentionally avoid me at all cost's when all i wanted to do was have a serious conversation like i "tried" with so many people here. Now Aaron is doing the same thing i tried talking to him about it then he got all offensive and made this i'm done post then went off on me when Ice Knight starts bashing me when i guess i'm supposed to just flick off like it's nothing, and not say anything when he suggests i'm to blame and i should be banned. Vicman was doing the same thing i was you said it yourself Aaron, so what the easiest solution was just to blame me again since a few people hated me anyways? You suddenly change you're mind as does Vicman about the whole situation, no one here dare try to have a serious conversation about anything, you lose you're "cool factor" and you're "corny factor" goes up for not laughing off every single thing.
We all did the same thing to adam until vicman convinced us to let him back in, we generally didn't like his attitude so we pushed him to the curve until vicman convinced us to talk to him about it, which we did and realized we were ass holes and adam stopped doing most of the annoying things he did cause he then realized what really it was that he was doing. Because we talked about it. I remember you Aaron saying things along the lines of: Yea we just modded him cause he posts alot and then me agreeing with you until i realized that Adam didn't understand any of it well, and i think no one here understands my sarcasm, cause it's hard as hell to detect it over the internet.
I made a little joke then vicman made one and it kept going until we both started saying messed up shit. And i did get mad, and both of us messaged Aaron about it, which then "appeared" to be the problem until everyone decided to blame me again. I don't see how i started something if two people are both doing the same thing. Same with the halo thing i make a smilie face then vicman is calling me a faggot for not liking it and i guess im to blame for that also. No one else here has to be bashed by the entire forum populace for not liking something or constantly 24/7 poked at for his fandom cause people are always out to see what joke will flip the switch today.
I don't ever remember a single time going out of my way to make someone else mad unless they did it to me first, if it caused other problems maybe you should look at the things you did wrong or that caused problems too, but no here is man enough to admit that they did anything wrong, it's easier to follow the crowd or pressure yourself into something instead of stating your own unique opinion. Maybe half the problems here would have been resolved and most of the original people would still be here if people would have been willing to confront their so-called "friends" who would have more then willingly liked to talk about something, but then again i remember trying to and when i thought something was offensive vicman just made jokes cause he thinks everything is funny, and Aaron stays Neutral and seems to ignore anything else someone might *gasp* feel...
No one will read this or even try to talk about it so in the end i guess it doesn't really matter....
Anyone who cares(like anyone does) can e-mail me at [email protected] (for msn) or e-mail at [email protected]
So whatever..
). well i guess i was going to come in here saying that the situation could still be resolved... but unfortunately i think it's gone too far this time. good luck to you in future endeavors sonic, but i cant say i really appreciate your terms of leaving here. im not holding it against you really because these problems lately havent really concerned me so it's hard to get very angry when i dont know half of what's going on, but i think there could have been better ways of handling the situation... i guess there's not much anyone can do at this point, so later. and reset the password man.
